Tuesday was a bad day. And when I say bad day, think of me bawling my eyes out for at least an hour while getting ready for work, and then crying all the way into work, and then pulling up my big girl panties and going into work, only to cry again for another hour plus when I got there. I know I’m going to have good and bad days but hell, I haven’t even started treatment yet!
What I wanted on Tuesday was to create a time machine and go back to when I started having blood in my stool. RIGHT THEN I should have gotten a colonoscopy. I should not have waited. I should not have made excuses (“it’s just stress”, “I’m sure I have IBS”, “I don’t have time to take two days off from work.”) My life would have been so different. Would they just have seen a polyp? Would they find the cancer but it just be Stage 1? Or Stage 2? The game of “what if” got me so worked up that I couldn’t control myself anymore and I cried more than I had over the past two weeks….i mean crocodile tears and ugly crying. It wasn’t pretty.
I know my story would be so different IF I had done things differently. But I didn’t. I can’t dwell on it. And now I’m blessed with my cancer and my journey. And let me tell you, if my story/journey can make a difference in one person’s life, then it is all worthwhile. I don’t wish this diagnosis, or any cancer diagnosis on anyone.
So with that being said, I’m going to be super annoying and pump you full of Colorectal Cancer facts/symptoms/etc. This comes from the Colorectal Cancer Alliance. https://www.ccalliance.org
Colorectal cancer Symptom List
Colorectal cancer (cancer in the colon or rectum) first develops with few, if any, symptoms. Be proactive and talk to your doctor. If symptoms are present, they may include:
-A Change in Bowel Habits,
-Persistent Abdominal Discomfort
-Finding blood (either bright red or very dark) in your stool
-Weakness or Fatigue
When to See a Doctor
The symptoms of colon cancer and rectal cancer can also be associated with many other health conditions. Only a medical professional can determine the cause of your symptoms.
Early signs of cancer often do not include pain. It is important not to wait before seeing a doctor. Early detection can save your life.
Remember, the most common symptom is NO symptom, which is why we call it the silent killer. If you’re 45, average risk, get screened!